As I strolled the open space of timeless chatter and nostalgic yesterdays, a familiar sense of security came over me. Old clocks, sideboards that served many teas and family meals, tea kettles, and the mixture of old and new. All of it seemed to lure me into a safe place.
As my husband and I walked the corridors of the old antique mall, I couldn’t help but find promise in the nostalgia. There was so much to see and I began to feel overwhelmed and unsure. I would think, “Let me keep my options open and see what’s around the corner. If I only had that, I could happy. Oh, why couldn’t things be like this again?” As my mindless chatter took me to another world, I saw the most beautiful china cabinet I’m sure I needed. After all, the one I have is not this one! The “wrestling” began in my heart.
Just as I began to pine away for something I couldn’t have, my husband Jim said, “Hey, come and see this.” I’ll be honest, I thought he was going to show me an old tool from the 1800’s I had no use for, so reluctantly I left that pretty old cabinet behind to see what the “surprise” was.
To my amazement and joy, Jim walked me over to a snare drum in a suitcase with a big smile on his face. I was stunned! The incredible thing is, that not twenty minutes ago we had been talking about childhood memories and that I played the snare drum in the elementary school band and he played the clarinet. Time stood still for just a moment as, well, we enjoyed the memories of innocence and happiness.
What are the chances that we would happen upon a snare drum the same day we talked about it? It was as if God was showing me that if I choose to take my eyes off of what I want and think I need, he’ll give me what I REALLY need. The joy and sweetness of His presence and promises from long ago. You see that snare drum was more than just a drum, it was the very essence and entrance to the dreams and gifting God had for me as a child. Not because I could play a drum, but because it reminded me that it was a part of the journey. That snare drum was the beginning, and he was inviting me over to “come and see” and be reminded “I haven’t forgotten.”
Jackie Tinkler is the Co-Founder and Ministry Development Director of Something More and lives in Birmingham, Alabama. She has been ministering to women for 20 years as a Women’s Ministry Director, Counselor and Producer. She is co-writing a Women’s Small Group Study Something Beautiful and when not leading women to freedom can be found worshipping at her home church, Church of the Highlands, home styling for friends, on the hiking trail with her husband, Jim and their chocolate lab, Nelson, talking with their adult daughter Lauren or sitting in the balcony at the Alabama Theatre.